I’ve never felt pain like this. A constant battle with your heart and soul. Something you thought was so right be so wrong. Just one day or night could change your whole life. You thought for good but it was for bad. There is no butterfly effect. No time machine. No magic to make you forget. The thing that’s hurts most is you’ll be fine. You’ll forget about me but I won’t forget about you. No matter how hard I try. That’s my curse, the only magic trick I know. Is to never forget and to never let go. So should I just pretend. Until it all turns true. Should I just act like I never knew you. If I keep repeating it. Will it be for real. So one day ill wake up and my heart will heal.
Here is my outfit and face of the day today for running errands.
Grey Shirt- Ross
Black tank- Walmart
Boots- Charlotte Russe
Lipstick- Jordana Lipliner in Plush Plum NYX lipstick in Snow White, NYX Xtreme Lip Cream in Absolute Red
Eyes- Naked Basics Palette
Foundation- Revlon ColorStay Whipped Foundation in Caramel
Blush- Wet N Wild in Heather Silk
OMG I’M STARVING!!! I screamed. Looking in my moms kitchen. There’s nothin to eat. All health crap but not even the good kind. Down to the damn health toast and organic sugar granules. I need to go grocery shopping for myself ASAP. Ever since I made the decision to move back to my moms to save up some money for a house and get another car it’s been like slow torture. Sharing a car with a 19 year old who feels like she knows everything and has no real responsibility just makes me want to tear my hair out. Don’t get me started on her driving. Dear God I need my own car again asap. This isn’t New York so its not like I could just hail a cab or take the train, which I would gladly do if I could. I won’t make it to the age of 28 with this kind of crap going on. Just a cautionary tale to all. When you move out of your moms house, DON’T GO BACK!!